in front of you guys..
im troubled now..
people say im hypocrite..
went to solve the root of that problem..
people say i act angel and make people the devil..
i said i didn't..
people say im acting..
explained..
and whatever i explained..
people still think im acting..
tired of explaining..
i remained silent..
people say i scare..
what wrong have i done?
what god have i offended?
why do i deserve all this unfairness?
just because i treated all nicely and fairly?
just because i never show my weakness before your eyes?
just because i always put on a strong front to avoid people to bully me..
that makes me a bad guy and a bully?
just because im more straightforward?
just because i always joke, people don't need to gimme face?
just because i do and say things in my own way?
just because i look strong, people comment on me without sparing a thought for me?
don't care about my feelings..
just because i show my happy face even if im upset, im call hypocrite?
just because i reject someone i don't like, i get retribution?
just because i love all my friends, i try not to hurt them and put them down?
just because of one thing, people put every blame on me?
just because he don't want to come to school, is my fault?
just because i open up, people don't want it to end?
backstabber/hypocrite/devil/bully/act
when someone come and ask me 'are you ok?'
i lied and said 'im ok'
right after i lied, i cried..
cried on the bus when on the way to school again..
cried right after i sat down in marketing lecture hall, when no one is around me and when the light was off.. cried because i don't know who to look for? i don't want to disturb until my friend.. and seriously, i don't know who will care about me.. because no one loves me..
because i don't understand this world..
i don't understand the reason why im living in this world to suffer all this?
i don't understand the reason to carry on living...
if only i can leave this place..
if only i can leave all troubles behind..
if not, people won't let me off..
if not, i have to keep suffering..
i want all this to end.. whatever it will takes..
look what i've done?
just because... no one likes me.. no one care about me..
IceQueen♥ Dreams will take you there
